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Friday, 15 May 2009

weekend...

yeahh...
i dont wanna wake up at 8:00 to go to the townsend orientation T____________T
ITS TOO EARLY FOR MEE!! x[
ah wells. itll be over with eventually :/

so....
apparently hes lost his wallet.
i hope i find it ^^
...jesus im such a LOSER

i need new pants. its kinda weird wearing the same 2 pairs of pants EVERY SINGLE GODDAMN DAY.
but ae is too procy. && they have nothing at aero :[
fml yo.

Thursday, 14 May 2009

11:11
make a wish~ <3
i just went on her xanga and GUESS WHAT
she says SHES OVER!
whew. that was a relief. maybe shell stop staring at me now ^^
sick and stuff -___-

gahh my head hurts so much &&my nose is all stuffy T_T
i hope im not sick. stupid swine flu ><

ANYWAYS...

so yeah...
im still confused about some stuff about him :/
like, i caught him looking at me today during lunch. [he looked so hot in red/black ^^]
his expression was totally unreadable... i didnt get if he was staring at ME or his ex =.=
[speaking of which, she seems like a stalker or something. whenever i look around during lunch, i always see her staring at me with this tricked out expression. susan says its like the EX loves me or something O________o ill pass. maybe she knows i like him? idk....]
&&then we actually had a conversation about bigbang. he says he likes "goobye baby" ILOVETHATSONG!! <3

he got suspended yesterday w/ yjen cuz they got caught cutting. i dont think theyll be able to go to the poconos trip in the 27/26th :/ i was so happy that i could watch him on the coach bus and stuff.
^
jesus. i sound so pathetic. but thats how it is i guess...
gotta go pray.
i have a question for allah SWT:
why/how are you so patient with us? even the people who dont even FOLLOW you are treated pretty well, yet they ignore you :T
jesus christ i feel SO bad T_T
IM SORRY ALLAH!
IM TRYING to stop listening to music and subconsciously flirting w. him &&realizing AFTER its over -_-
maybe i should become a hermit and live in some deserted cabin? :O
shoot, its late. i should be doing my hw T_T

Wednesday, 13 May 2009

yeah...
i miss anny a lot. i really wish she was here....
you know, i always thought her funeral would be here. who knew that her body would be sent back home...
my friends arent the same without her. one acts like a total drama queen. she always talks in this solemn voice &&acts like its permanently affected her life. she didnt even know anny that well. when we held a goodbye event for her, this friend was crying BUT she was screaming whenever one of annys closer friends did. why would you use someones death to your advantage? how sick.